My Weight Loss Story + Advice and Tips!

My Weight Loss Story + Advice and Tips!

Hey guys!

Long time no see and then I write three posts in one day, sorry! This post is going to be all about how I lost 6 stone in 6 months and then sort of maintained it. If you have seen my previous post from earlier today you’ll have seen I recently had a miscarriage which as you can imagine wasn’t easy. So not only did I gain weight, I was also eating too much one day, not enough the next and my weight was very up and down the whole time.

I was also travelling a lot for my blogging work as well as various different shows and events so on the road the easiest option is a takeaway or some sort of meal out so again my weight fluctuated. However I am now back down to my original goal and I am so proud of myself  for achieving it.

So let’s go back to September 2016… 

I was sent a cute little sports bra and underwear set from Pretty Little Thing and I had to take some photos. I took this photo…

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And when I took it, immediately I hated it. I thought I looked absolutely disgusting and that was the moment I decided I needed to do something about my body. I wasn’t happy and I needed to change that.

Moving onto December 2016. I finally starting feeling a little happier with the way I was looking now…

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Let’s fast forward to April 2017, where I was now living back at home with my mom and dad after a very messy break up and having to leave our joint home..

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Now moving forward to August 2017, at this point I was in Canada and I was still unaware that I was actually carrying a baby of around 3 months or so, but I was starting to become very unhappy with my weight again..

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And now finally… September 2017. 2 weeks after miscarrying and I have been working tirelessly to make sure I could get back down to my goal weight where I was in April..

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And now for all of those together so you can compare…

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So how did I do it? Well, surprisingly it was easier than I thought it would be. Originally I did actually try the shake challenge where you didn’t eat breakfast or lunch or snacks, just a milkshake and then food on the evening, but I couldn’t do that, it was too hard. So instead I tried different things that would suit me and work for me at the same time.

This is not sponsored, but I did receive some Protein World Slender Blend so I started using that as a meal replacement for breakfast as since leaving college I haven’t actually had breakfast, which I know is bad for me, but I just never wanted breakfast. That was my first step, actually having the protein shake as a meal to start my day off well. 

Other than that change I never went on a diet as such, instead I changed my lifestyle rather than dieting because personally to me that’s pointless because once you go off the diet and eat regularly you’re going to put the weight back on. 

The main changes I made are as following: 

  • Keeping snacking to a minimum. 1 chocolate bar or packet of crisps per 3 days.
  • Only 2 fizzy drinks per week, only drinking water/squash/juice.
  • No eating past 6:30, including snacks.
  • Smaller portions overall.

People always seem to think I made dramatic changes, when in fact I barely did anything, I just cut down on things I had previously over indulged on. Don’t get me wrong I still love to go McDonald’s and get 20 chicken nuggets all to myself every now and then, I mean who doesn’t? But I now know my limits, I know when to stop, I know when I have over indulged that week and when I can or can’t treat myself.

I’ll be honest I did go through a stage where I basically didn’t eat and it was making me lethargic and I just didn’t really want to do anything. But I soon realised that is the worst thing to do. Starving yourself is worse than over indulging. I now find that since I have started eating healthier and looking after myself and my body more I am generally a happier person and I am also more active, more lively and I am not half as tired as I used to be. I still absolutely love my sleep don’t get me wrong but I am so much more awake and willing to do things now.

It isn’t something that will happen overnight and everybody is different so you need to work out a way that works for you. For some people that may be a diet, for some it may be the shake challenge, for others it may be like me where I changed my whole lifestyle and eating habits. It took me a long while to work out a way that would work for me, so don’t give up trying new things.

This time last year I was so so unhappy with my body and the way I looked, I’m still not 100% happy now but I am so so much happier than I was. It takes time and it’s hard work but if you want something bad enough you can make it happen and the most rewarding thing ever is looking at those pictures above and seeing the progress you have made. 

My top tips: 

  • Find a way which works for you – Don’t just do what people say.
  • Do not cut out meals unless having a meal replacement like a protein shake etc.
  • Regularly take progress photos so when you’re having a bad day you can see how far you have already came.
  • Set yourself a REALISTIC target from the get-go. For example if you’re 12 stone no’By August 2018 I will be down to 10 stone’ or ‘By December 2018 I’ll have dropped 2 dress sizes’. It doesn’t matter what the target is, as long as it gives you something to work for.
  • If you don’t reach your target, don’t give up. Set a new target and keep going. Sometimes it happens quicker for some people than others.
  • Do not compare yourself or your journey with others. Some people will lose weight quicker than others, some people are naturally skinny and won’t put weight on. It doesn’t matter what other people look like or are doing, focus on you and what you want to achieve.

I really hope this post gives a little bit of help or advice to people. I’ve had so many questions about it all so I thought it would just be easier to pop it all into one post so everybody can read it. I am in no way, shape or form an expert, I am just passing on what I have learnt from my own experiences. 

Thank you for reading!

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My Miscarriage Story – Readers Discretion

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Hey guys!

If you have been reading my blog for a while, you’ll know I am quite open with events that happen in my life which may help others. I talk a lot about things I have been through or am going through in the hopes that somebody who reads the post may find comfort or advice in there and today is no different. Some people may find this upsetting so please only read if you think you can.

As you can see from the title, I had a miscarriage. On the 27th of August 2017 I got took into hospital where I lost a baby at 3 months. I didn’t find out I was pregnant until it was almost too late. I hadn’t really shown any major signs of pregnancy. Looking back there were some signs but I just didn’t pick up on them. For example, I had gained weight, but I thought it was because I was eating a lot of junk food, going out for meals a lot and constantly travelling the country for shows so I had no choice but to eat a lot of take outs. I also threw up after eating a Chinese which I have never done before. I also hadn’t had a period, but I thought this was down to the fact I had continued to take the pill so I didn’t have a period whilst in Canada.

So when I got home from Canada and I still hadn’t had my due period I decided I needed to do a test and find out. With 1 inconclusive test and 1 positive test I needed to see the Doctor and get an answer from them, so I booked it for the first available date which was Tuesday the 29th of September, which in the end turned out to be too late.

On Sunday 27th of August, nearly two weeks after landing home from Canada, I woke up in agonising pain. I couldn’t breath, my stomach felt like someone was repeatedly stabbing me and twisting the knife for good measure and I felt weak. My stomach pain wasn’t a period pain, it was so much more intense and powerful and horrible and I knew something wasn’t right. So I was taken to a walk in centre to see a doctor who did 2 tests, both inconclusive. After doing a thorough examination he said he believed it could be two things, a miscarriage or an ectopic pregnancy, both of which petrified me.

He advised me to see someone at the hospital immediately so he contacted them and had me fast tracked to the Surgical Assessment Unit, a ward where patients go to speak with a Doctor or Surgeon and discuss the next steps. I had a bunch of different tests done, urine, blood, blood pressure, blood sugar. Anything you can imagine I had tested. At this point I was bleeding very heavily and I was in the worst pain I ever could have felt. After spending all day in the hospital taking Morphine to control the pain, the surgeon and doctor said they would like me to stay in overnight and be reassessed early hours the next day and hopefully find out the exact reason for the extreme pain, this caused my anxiety to freak out and I panicked and couldn’t do it. Against Doctor’s orders I decided to discharge myself. At this point I had already looked into it and I was 99% certain I knew I had had a miscarriage and my nurse also thought that too and told me to go home and rest and sleep and drink plenty of water and come back Wednesday for an ultrasound scan.

So when Wednesday came around I went to the hospital and I had an internal and external ultrasound scan. Both of which showed no signs of a heartbeat. The surgeon recalled me to the Surgical Assessment Unit where he broke the news along with a nurse that I had in fact miscarried at just over 3 months pregnant. In that moment I felt completely broken. 3 months pregnant and I didn’t even know for sure that I was.

Immediately I felt guilty. I felt like it was all my fault. In those 3 months I had got a stomach tattoo, I had drank alcohol, I had been to Canada jumping in the lakes, I hadn’t been eating properly as I felt sick all of the time. I felt like it was all my fault and nothing anyone was saying to me was changing my mind about that. At that moment in time, deep down I knew it was all my fault.

I was told that I needed to go home, I needed to rest, I needed to try and start eating again. I was told I could potentially bleed some more so I needed to take care of myself. I was of course devastated, I was heartbroken and I had an overwhelming feeling of guilt. I had to experience all of it on my own because the babies father didn’t even bother to show up and for me that was the most heartbreaking moment of my life so how could he not have cared?

Looking back, I learnt a lot about myself those few days. It was only a few weeks ago so it is still very very painful, however I learnt that I am stronger than I ever imagined I could have been. I went through one of the most heartbreaking things a woman could go through and I did it on my own. Not on my own completely, I had my family and friends supporting me, but on my own in a sense that it takes two people to make a baby, it only took one to lose it and deal with it. I also learnt that some people aren’t who they say they are. People will always say ‘I’m always here for you’ but when it comes down to it it’s actually very few people who stick to their word and do help you and have your back. And I think the most important thing is that I learnt that miscarriage is not your fault. You’ll feel guilty, you feel like it’s all your fault and you could’ve and should’ve done things differently, but the reality is if a miscarriage is going to happen it will happen regardless of what you do to try and prevent it. If your body doesn’t feel like it can continue the pregnancy then it won’t allow it to continue.

I’ve always believed that whatever is meant to be will be, I lost this baby because it wasn’t meant to be, I was meant to experience it, learn from it and grow from it. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through but I’m starting to grow from it slowly but surely. Last night I watched a British Soap Opera called Eastenders and the quote below was said… for me it hurt but it’s true. Just because I didn’t give birth to the baby, doesn’t mean I’ll forget about it. He/she will always be in my heart and I’ll never forget. I would also like to take a moment to thank the producers, writers, crew and cast of Eastenders for showing so much respect throughout the miscarriage scenes. It was a hard watch, but it was something that has hopefully helped millions of people to understand miscarriage a little bit more.

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A miscarriage is not easy and I would not wish it upon my worst enemy. It’s a scary and lonely place to be. You can be surrounded by people but in that moment you feel alone and scared because you’ve lost your baby, your body lost the baby. You’ll question every little thing you’ve done, wondering if it triggered it off or if you could have done something differently to stop it from happening. But in reality, a miscarriage is a natural thing, something that is controlled by your body believing you couldn’t carry a baby full term and you may never understand the reason why, but there is always a reason.

I never imagined I would get pregnant at 20 years old. I never imagined I’d lose a baby at 3 months old. I never imagined I would have to go through it without the babies dad by my side. But I did and I have and I’m a stronger person for it. Miscarriage is never easy, this is my second one at the age of 20. The first I lost at 3/4 weeks, the second I lost at just over 3 months and it doesn’t get any easier each time it happens. You will still remember the pain, the heartache, you’ll remember around the time he or she should’ve been born, you’ll remember it all. But in time you’ll start to heal and you’ll realise it wasn’t meant to be and they are safer where they are looking down on you.

I spoke with the doctor, nurses and surgeon whilst in hospital and I voiced my concern about this being the second time and thinking maybe I can’t have kids, maybe my body won’t allow me to. But luckily they said that there is no indication that they can see that I am unable to carry a healthy baby full term so at some point in my future I will be able to have children, hopefully when the time is right my body will allow that to happen.

This post was hard to write, it was something I was debating about writing or not, especially this soon. But I decided I would to help the process of healing and grieving and learning to move forward. I have always been open about the things I go through because I believe the more we talk about situations like this the better. Because keeping it inside will not help me through the healing process and it won’t help anyone experiencing it thinking they’re alone. You are not alone no matter how much you think you are.

I now have to go through a process of seeing a councillor now due to me having depression and then losing a baby and the health services wanting to make sure I can cope with it all. At first I couldn’t cope. At first I hated myself and I didn’t want to live anymore. But now I’ve came to terms with the fact it wasn’t supposed to be and with the help and support of my family and friends, especially my mom and my best friend Harley I am slowly learning to move forward. I know it won’t be easy, but if I have learnt one thing it is that life is so precious and you need to grasp every opportunity with both hands. Some people don’t get the chance to live their life, enjoy their life, but if you have that chance then do not throw it away.

I really hope that I can help just one person by writing this to understand they’re not alone. I personally have a great support network around me and therefore I’ve stayed strong. I have said it time and time again, I am always open to listen to anyone experiencing something tough. Go to the social media tab above where all of my information is kept, which now includes a personal email address where you can email me regarding anything and everything and I will listen and be there just so you know you’re not alone.

Thank you for reading.

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Technic Makeup

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Hey Lovelies!

When I first started blogging I never imagined brands would want to work with me, however I have been so incredibly lucky to work with some incredible brands and I’m so grateful for the opportunities I have been given. Today I bring to you Technic Makeup! I absolutely love this brand. They do incredible makeup for super good prices so when they asked me to partner with them for a few posts I had to snap up the opportunity! So today I bring you a post about all of the products I have been lucky enough to be sent. Today’s post is a haul and first impressions, I will also be doing a full review post once I have used the products a couple of times.

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So the first thing I was sent was this gorgeous highlighter. One picture is without the flash, the other with the flash.

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When I received this I was so happy, it is such a gorgeous colour and I cannot wait to use it! I really hope this lives up to my expectations because I have heard so many incredible things.

The next product is this blush strobe kit.

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All four of these colours look so nice so I honestly can’t wait to use it!

The next product is the bronze strobe kit.

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If I’m honest I am a little sceptical of this product as I prefer a matte bronzer however I am willing to give it a try and see if I like it.

The next product is this Mega Sultry 2 eyeshadow palette.

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This palette is a mixture of matte and shimmery colours and they are all incredibly gorgeous. This is the sort of palette I would normally go for so I definitely can’t wait to try it out. Really really hoping it is pigmented because if it is it may well become my favourite palette!

The next product I am ridiculously excited to have been given and it is the colour fix cream corrector palette.

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I have heard so many incredible things about this palette so when I got sent it I was super excited! I really can’t wait to try it out and see if it is as good as everybody has been saying it is.

The next two products are two brushes. A Pro Blending Brush and a Pro Face Brush.

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These brushes are so soft, they don’t lose hairs when you pull on them which is what some cheaper brushes do, so I can’t wait to try them out.

The next product I have received is this Soft Focus Transparent Loose Powder.

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I love a good translucent powder so hopefully this is a good one to add to my collection.

The next product is this Superfine Matte Blusher.

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It looks like two really nice colours, I don’t actually own a matte powder blush only a liquid matte blush to I can’t wait to try it out.

The next product is lipstick with added vitamin E.

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I very rarely wear red lipstick unless I am on a night out so I can’t wait to actually try this out and see if I can make it work.

The final product I received is this Brow Tamer Brow Kit.

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I have been using the same brow kit for probably 18 months or so, so I am set in my ways a little bit. However I am willing to try this brow kit because who knows, it could become my favourite! You can never try out too many brow kits!

I am super excited to try all of these products as I absolutely love the Technic Mega Mattes palette so hopefully they’re all just as incredible as that palette.

I want to take this time to say a massive thank you to the guys over at Technic for being so lovely and sending me these products to try. I definitely recommend their brand their products if you’re looking for cheaper makeup that is good.

You can follow Technic at the following accounts:  

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Thank you for reading and I will see you all in my next post. If you haven’t already please go and checkout my new Facebook page where I will be updating followers on future giveaways and exciting brand collaborations: https://www.facebook.com/zoelouisesmithxblog/

I have also been using Snapchat a lot recently with behind the scene photos and videos so you can also check them out by adding zoelouisesmithx.

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Disclaimer: I was sent these products for review however this post is not sponsored and all opinions are my own.